, three days later i had the surgery and then three weeks later i was playing lindsay davenport at an event in minneapolis and so i had something to look forward to always. and then when i had the radiation, i went -- i went and played at the french open. worked for tennis channel. played at the french open and wimbledon. and tennis sort of whgot me through all those tough times. i'm fortunate i had that in my life. of course, positive attitude always helps get you through stuff. so i had both. so it was difficult time no doubt about it. and it was really difficult when someone public actually -- the first most exhausting and difficult thing was when i found out i was positive. second most difficult was the day i went public and added all these injuries and had to talk about it. i'm still talking about it. so that's -- that took the most out of me, actually. >> and difficult because you felt -- >> i'm glad that i did that. >> difficult because you felt you head to constantly answer questions or difficult to because this would ordinarily be a private battle and this was something you n